Update

Just wanted to let you all know whats going down in the brain of Emmy! Big fun, I know your curious and a little afraid, all valid feeling though. I have been in a general good mood with others, I get annoyed easy but I get over it, its no biggy. haha. But with my faith, I don't really know. lately I have made my relationship with God into a religion. I feel so fake, I put so much pressure on myself about reading the bible everyday and not making mistakes in front of others that I lost sight of what really matters. God and our constant love for one another. I am stupid, I get it. Its good to know that I can admit these things. Sometime I screw up and you know what I DON'T always read the bible. I make mistakes, but I am only human. Now, I am moving towards improving these areas of my life.

College

So today was a super exciting day. It consisted of getting up early, going to math class, coming home, doing 3 and a half hours of homework, eating 3 cookies, picking up my sister from school, doing 1 and a half hours of nothing but homework, took a math quiz, went to work, came home, died. That's pretty much it. My math is so boring. Its just stuff I learned about freshman year. I sit in class and daydream about chocolate milk. Its like when you are a grown up but someone still gives you kiddie scissors to cut with. I feel like I could be in harder maths but this is the one they told me was right for me, and that if I went into a harder one I would struggle.
College is fun though, I enjoy the one or two classes a week instead of everyday. I don't really like this online work. I had my first, college stinks conversation today, even though I don't think it stanks, well except the homework, I figured it was fun talking about it stinking. I just talk about things for amusement sometimes. haha, I am a weirdo!
Well, its been fun giving this little update, but I have a crazy headache and a bunch of homework left to do. I'll leave the homework for tomorrow though. Night You All!!!!!!

Blogs + DP

Blogging is not an easy task nor is is one that I can keep up with. I struggle to find interesting topics for you to read about. I am sorry that my writing skills lack the prompt and timely manner in wish you long for. I have a college English class to tend to now and my blog writings we be suffering for it. I feel sorrow that my writing will be farther down on my list of items to take care of, although I find it relaxing and fun. Since I seem to have found time to write you this gloomy message, I feel obliged to give you a little more to read than just my sad story.



I am having a Dr Pepper(DP) problem, its so addictive that I am having trouble following my one a day rule. The stuff is so good and when you call it DP it sounds awesome. You must have one and call it that, for it makes it taste even better. When you drink it you turn into a superhero, you are filled with this sense of floating. As your mouth fills with this delicious substance you start to glow for you have tasted DP. The smell of it is just intoxicating.The drink of the intelligent, the beautiful, and the boss.

Now I realize that this drink is bad for you and I should drink water. You are right, I know all this and yet I drink anyway; ignoring you maybe even drinking in spite of you. No I drink because its good, not cause of you. The reason I drink even when I know how bad it happens to be very simple, its just that I don't have deserts, I resist that temptation to have super surgery stuff, and candy, and chocolate. I have DP as my little comfort "food." I understand, they are still bad for you, I got it. I am trying to drink less, and I will succeed. I just really like the stuff.

Crazy Talk

So lately I have been trapped between my love for others and them constantly hurting me. I always give second chances, no matter what they always redeem themselves in my eyes and its like all is forgotten. I guess I do this becasue God constantly forgives my sins so if I am to be like him I must for give and forget also right. Well I followed this for a real long time but now I have decided that I must also guard my heart from things that hurt me or affect my walk with God. I can't keep getting distracted by others sins when I have my own to worry about, right? That sounds so selfish but I can't help others get to know Christ when I myself am struggling to maintain my relationship with my Lord. So what do I do now, harden my heart to all that suround me in fear that they might one day let me down? NO, I live for today and trust that God is going to watch out for me. If I get distracted by others thats my own fault! I know what I need to focus on, and its my downfall if I can concentrate. I shuouldn't be blameing others for my sins. I know what is right and wrong. I am going to love others and not care if they try and hurt me. Yea, go ahead and try! I'm not going let that hold me back!